Coming back to Reality

It is a strange thing to come back to reality after completely submerging yourself elsewhere for a week. As the 3 faithful readers of my blog know I recently returned from my Phase A training in L.A. I won’t know the results for another week or so (at least that’s what we’ve been told) so that is a bit nerve wracking. I’ve been back for 2 days and I still can’t believe how tired I am. Not just ‘hey I could use a quick power nap’ tired, but more like I’m tired all the way to the core. I keep catching myself randomly staring off into the distance, I’m not deep in thought, rather my mind is blank…just staring for no reason.  I hope to catch up on sleep soon, according to my colleagues it took them a good week to recoup. I don’t doubt it now.

Perhaps the strangest thing is that even though I’m dog tired, I think that at any moment I’ll feel someone’s fingers curl and squeeze around my neck or that I will suddenly need to jump up and go kick a bag. It’s hard to come down from the week I had last week. I know I’m not the only one. Talking with other students at the end of the week I learned they were going through the same thing. Punching and kicking the air in the their sleep, waking up from Krav dreams and going out in public feeling like they were about ready to throw some knees and elbows if anyone got too close.  We can all thank the constant exercise and random drills for making us so edgey.

In some ways feeling so alert and ready isn’t a bad thing, but no one can stay at their highest alert level all of the time, eventually we all come back down and start meandering through life. I think that’s why I like Krav so much. Most of our self defenses are trained from a ‘passive’ stance, meaning a normal, unprepared stance. One of our instructors this week even made the comment that when we train we should train from other passive stances of how we’d stand in line for the theater, shopping or just walking around town. I think that’s a great idea I will pass on to my fellow students.

Something that stood out this past week and really grasped my attention was the idea of explosiveness. I’ve heard it a million times ‘speed over strength’ and I’ve seen my instructors bursting in their defenses, but I really saw good examples of it this past week. I’ve always thought that I was fairly explosive and I’ve been told I have very fast hands (not just by the ladies) but during our exercises this week I was told a few times to be more explosive. I didn’t think it was possible but as I kept pushing myself I felt like I broke through a wall and learned just how explosive I could be. It doesn’t matter how big or small you are, anyone can fight like, we just all hope we’ll never have to use it.



  1. anthony b said,

    October 19, 2009 @ 10:54 pm

    Wow dude. Please get some much needed rest.
    It makes me tired just to read what you have gone through let alone actually
    Doing it.
    Wait, it is wayyyy past my bedtime.
    Maybe that’s why I feel so tired…

    __We are the Knights who say Ni__

  2. mego said,

    October 20, 2009 @ 9:43 am

    let me know the results asap! … and remind me not to sneak up on you, anytime soon!

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